12/23/07 Fuck you variance

Well tonight went horendous, I started with a session of 3, and made a lil profit. Than lost 6 straight 6 mans. Which left me with $33 profit so I just tilted that away at 2/4 limit and now Im right back where i started, at 0. The way I run, when I run bad, I run bad. I mean 6 in a row is just plain ridculous. After I lost 3 I should have stopped and called it a night, but I didnt. And Im an idiot for tilting away that 33, very stupid of me, because althouhg its not that much money, its money. The frustrating part about grinding is you only make a certian amount win or lose. Lets say I make $6 avg. profit in 6 mans. That means whether I win or lose I make 6 dollars. In the long run it equals out. Well Im going on vacation for a week and half, and than hopefully ill be in a good state of mind when I come back to start grinding again. I wish I had a big bankroll already, and things would be easier, but starting a roll is the hardest thing, because having a good roll, these 6 mans wouldn't bother me win or loss, but trying to start one makes each match matter more to me...


-Josh

12/22/07

Just ended tonights session, its 2:20am now... I played 6 6 mans tonight, Im being slow and cautious, trying to build my roll slowly, so I dont have to borrow any money from my beautiful girlfriend. I ended today at $243.78, which is not bad, I should have had 2 1st's, but cards didnt fall my way, but hey 2nd's arent bad, still money. $243 is really good right now, espically since I havent played that many, once I get my bankroll to around $400 or so I can start playing them 4 or 5 at a time, but until than Im 3 tabling at the most... I'm going to post some articles soon probably tommorow or the next day. Anyway that's it for now, night all..

-Josh

12/21/2007 The beginning of the Grind

Well after running completely on stakers money for a while, I have started to grind out for myself. I ran a couple heebs for stakers, trying to turn $815 to $2000 or more, but I did not run good in the multi's so the heeb had to end.... Now I need money for myself though, to start my own roll again, and to have some money for life, at least until I get a job. What I grind is $39 6 man turbos on Pokerstars, I have made a good amount of money doing these, and these 6 mans as well as heads up SNG's are the only games I can 100% beat in the long run... But for now I will strictly run $39 6 mans and nothing else for a while.. It is very boring, but hey, its money.... Ill keep daily results on here of how Im doing, I started yesterday, with just 5 6 mans.. I won 2 of them, got a 2nd in one, and lost 2.... which is a great start. and puts my bankroll at $161, but that is running good, I wish that can continue, but we'll see. My biggest problem is that I expect to win every game, got to learn to accept variance. I understand variance, I know all the variables, yet I can never cope with it lol....stay tuned for more...

-Josh

First post

Hey guys... after seeing someone else have a blog, I thought to myself, why not create my own. I love to write, and often write articles about poker so thought this would be a perfect thing to do. Therefore, this blog will be dedicated not so much about my life personally, but my life with poker. I will post what I am doing currently at the moment with poker, and also strategy as well as advice concerning gambling that I had to learn the hard way... well hope everyone enjoys :), maybe one day if I hit big in the WSOP this blog will actually go big lol.